Haiz..God..Im in a dilemma..whether to go back Singapore to study or not..help mi with my decision making...im still strugging things in my heart thats with XJ....Lord its painful in my heart that things still stay so painful. I prayed n tears jus fall out of nowhere..cos now ...all i felt is i fail in wad i do. Lord do not forsake me cos i forsake all to go After u...today i talk to pootie...i jus dunno...whether shld i let go ...or let on myself carry on. Lord speak to me..Everydae the problems has been causing my diseasing pain. The one i loved n shed my blood n sweat doesnt love me anymore....the one i wan to move on...doesnt have a shadow of answers. And my future ahead is so blocked. God i trust you..I need you..this is a crucial time of decision making....i dont even have a proper friend to speak to...No one listens well....God i know ure there listening and knowing my plight...sigh..dont let me sink but Stand on the rock of Holiness. I've given up hope...Love...Faith.....Sigh....how much longer will i hold onto my life. Sometimes i jus wish i could jus drop dead if i pray to you to take my life away. but i know im not the only one. there are worst people out there that Needs you..n u wan to bring mi to them n shine ur Lamp so they could see your light...Lord God ..could u see my silent piano playing? inside my heart the perfect score was written....Lord i jus hope u heard my song and felt wad i felt...My character u know best. My desire u know well. Lord God set me free from this bondage...this ...chains that chain me. Will u not hear my cry? =( My parents need ur blessing too. God...so much things happened. I just want to bring ur presence n shine everywhere i go. But lord God...Where should i go? What should i do? Whats next? Enlighten me with ur Words. ni shi fou fang kai le wo ma? xiang wo ai de ren....wo zhi dao ni bu hui de. Lord help me to be joyful, cos i cant carry on acting im happy anymore..like there aint no troubles. I Tried my best showing good attitude....Lord i prayed..Lord i loved...God i Named u my father. that U wont Forsake me in my deepest pain. Save me o Lord. For i gave it all....just to live in ur presence. my Parents..My studies for future..My future..My partner..My path ahead..My tml....God..i leave it to ur hands...bless'em~ Amen.

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